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Period Politics

Love this.  She is spot on.

(ha, pun not intended).

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And, from a whipsmart awesome commenter on this videos comments feed, a link not to miss:

Gloria Steinem on “If Men Could Menstruate

(http://www.haverford.edu/psych/ddavis/p109g/steinem.menstruate.html)

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OPEN LETTER

To the friend of the friend who harasses me, a letter:

Hi Friend,

Thank you for the invite and I am sorry I didn’t make it.

There’s something that’s been gnawing at me since June that made me hesitant to socialize at HipBar again. I think about the incident far too often. It kept me up last night, actually. It has finally reached the point where I cannot suppress my profound discomfort and anger any longer. I regret that this will likely cause discomfort to you. I have been dealing with tremendously hurt feelings privately and am no longer willing to tolerate being made uncomfortable, since, I am not the one initiating the situation. Unfortunately, XYZ is.

Every time I have ever encountered XYZ he looks me seriously, deeply in the eyes and says “you’re very beautiful.” I have told you this before. Well, it hasn’t stopped. I have met him about 6 times, and he has said the exact same thing to me immediately after I say hello to him, as if on auto pilot, 6 times now. I am profoundly uncomfortable by his sexually motivated comments.

I know he is your friend and you esteem and value him. As I have expressed before: I wish I could know the side of him that you experience. I always try to change the subject immediately and engage him in meaningful conversation because you guys are so close. Plus, I try to give people a chance, even if they come across in a bad way at first. I have given him the benefit of the doubt for years now and in June I was like, ok, deep breath, be generous and go say hi. And honest to god, I say “hi XYZ, how are you,” he replied “i’m well. You’re really beautiful. You have very beautiful eyes.” I almost threw up. I had a physical reaction I was so insulted, so PISSED. It is the most transparent, unrelenting sexual harassment I have ever encountered from a peer, ever. I do not understand what causes him to insist on asserting his dominance over me by declaring his “appreciation” each and every time. It is as if I live in some perpetual beauty pageant in his mind. He continues to insist on evaluating my appearance, like a Miss America contest, and I should feel honored that he approves and have been awarded his approval, lucky lucky me.

Despite years of trying to be friendly, he refuses to engage me as a person. He only engages me as a thing to appreciate and evaluate based on how much pleasure my looks give him. And what kind of pleasure? Sexual pleasure. Arousal. Sex. Fucking, if you want to be blunt. I’m pretty sure these comments are not innocent. Inability to be friends has been established long, long ago.

He has never spoken to me about anything normal (culture, politics, ideas, weather, travel, etc). He has always become evasive if I inquire about his work or anything that would be considered a typical conversation subject and then dismisses me by walking away. I have made conscious efforts to be friendly with his wife, who I genuinely like, in the hopes that he will be respectful to me and stop treating me like an object. Sadly, that has also failed. He is unrelenting.

Recently, it has gotten more obnoxious, more public, more insulting. I introduced XYZ to ManFriend at OtherMutualFriend’s birthday party last year. He was completely dismissive of ManFriend and practically walked away in the middle of shaking ManFriend’s hand. An odd (or, completely guilty?) behavior for someone who was just staring deeply into my eyes talking about my beauty. ManFriend and I were both mystified by this behavior. We tried to forget about it. Then when I reintroduced XYZ to ManFriend at HipBar in June, he wouldn’t even look ManFriend in the eye or say hello. He just sort of nodded and walked off. I’m not sure how much more rude a person can be towards another person other than to not even acknowledge their presence by looking at them. XYZ then proceeded to turn to me a few minutes later and state loudly “you know you are really beautiful” so loudly that both XYZFiance and ManFriend overheard. XYZFiance, who I had just had a very nice conversation with, started glaring at me. ManFriend looked at me and said, I’m leaving, and walked out. I was floored. Besides the transparent lack of respect towards me, I couldn’t believe the utter lack of consideration on XYZ’s part towards everyone else; it was as if he didn’t realize that making sexual comments is tacky and classless unless it’s to the person with whom you have an actual romantic involvement (or budding one). Out of that context, it’s harassment. It made the space immediately toxic and uncomfortable for every single person involved: me, his Fiance, my ManFriend. I left immediately, incredibly pissed off. I would have called him out but I was in no mood to cause further awkwardness on a difficult night, beyond what I had just been forced into. I shut my mouth and have been living in a private hell (suck it up and take it!) ever since.

Sadly, I don’t know how XYZ is “normally” (which I guess means relating to dudes and women he finds unattractive). I repeatedly hear great things from you, but since I have only heard about 8 sentences from him, ever, and they are always inappropriately sexual-attraction based, I can only judge him based on my experience. I have to be frank: I feel dehumanized and like shit after each encounter. And when he talks to me he stands very close, making me feel trapped, like he’s mildly predatory and I’m about to be victim to something. I hate it.

I’ve spent four months thinking about this. I’ve also been reading a lot about what is sexism and what is harassment. Technically, his behavior falls under both categories. I deal with male aggression almost every day and easily recognize both forms of sexually aggressive behavior. I’m not sure what is worse, strangers or a colleague — as it is deeply unnerving to deal with sexual harassment from a person you should by all other accounts be friends with.

The thing that made me realize that this is unacceptable, and that there is no argument against it, is that if you turn the tables, it’s completely out of line. When I see him I don’t say, Hi XYZ, You’re black! His comments on my physical appearance are just as superficial and unwelcome as my comment on race would be. Racism and sexism are very closely linked because in daily life both emerge as subtle, frequently undetected forms of keeping people down, “in their place”. It’s harder to understand sexism because people think that comments are flattering and that discussing a woman’s beauty is a compliment. It’s not. It’s a form of sexual advance that displays the sexual arousal of the compliment-giver, it’s not innocent at all. It’s domineering and threatening (aroused men can lead to unwanted sex (aka rape) if men are inconsiderate, selfish automatrons; this is why all sexual advances pose a potential threat and why being a privileged, educated man makes it extra aggravating: he should know better than to treat women in a way that is both patronizing and threatening). Commenting on women’s looks is a form of catcalling if it’s not coming from a lover or from a person the woman knows and appreciates hearing it from. Both sexism and racism are forms of control and asserting dominance over a person by appointing yourself in charge of determining the value, the worth, of that person based on visible outside traits (not on internal qualities like, say, character, intellect, soul). Men historically have asserted dominance and superiority over women this way. Whites have done the same with many non whites. It’s a subtle way for men, or white people, to maintain an upper hand in society: to assert yourself as the powerful one in tiny tiny ways in seemingly innocent conversation.

Be it conscious or unconscious, XYZ has proven six times over that he feels he is entitled to be the authority on my appearance, evaluating if I’m beautiful or not, and CLEARLY derives personal pleasure from both looking at me and telling me – otherwise he wouldn’t be doing it. It is unacceptable, unwanted, and insulting. What I look like is not in the public domain and up for discussion. And I certainly do not want to hear it from him — Unless his blackness is up for conversation too, or his whiteness, or his manliness. Unless I can comment on that freely and make him feel like a small piece of crap, just like he makes me feel. If so: then the playing field would be fair, but morally demented.

To conclude: what I look like is none of his business or anyone else’s. And I want him to stop.

Thank you for listening to my discomfort and anger. I regret that I am sharing it with you first, not him. I will tell him also. He deserves to hear it from me directly. And ought to be made respectfully aware of the profoundly damaging impact of his commentary, a privilege he clearly hasn’t considered to be what it is: a form of sexual harassment.

My point to you is: I am sorry I didn’t show up; I wanted to see you and Others. I like and respect you all very much. I was concerned that if I did show up, and if he was there, I would be very direct and confront him to his face about how his behavior makes me feel. I didn’t want to bother you or your sister or disturb the party. So I didn’t show up. I hope you understand.

I wish things were otherwise; I wish I wasn’t put in a position to have to type this email. Unfortunately, the reality is: this email was long overdue.

Sincerely,

Ps. This: http://www.bustle.com/articles/46527-6-things-you-might-not-think-are-harassment-but-definitely-are-because-apparently-we-need-to

Pps. Happy Birthday, XYZ.

The importance of standing up for yourself, and others

As a follow up to earlier posts about street harassment, get great tips on how to intervene effectively, here:

http://nymag.com/scienceofus/2014/10/time-i-didnt-stand-up-to-a-street-harasser.html

““We all know about peer pressure,” said Roy. “And I think a lot of the original behavior comes out of that. Like, ‘Dude, why aren’t you hitting on her? Dude, why aren’t you trying to pick up more women? Why aren’t you yelling that at her?’” Having another guy come up and say exactly the opposite, then, can make an impact — even if it’s not guaranteed to. … “That one person acting and saying something often encourages other people to take a stand,” she said.”

When was the last time you congratulated yourself for not being sexist? or racist?

I want to acknowledge and share the voice of this author who speaks about her experience as a person of color living in Portland, OR — purportedly a liberal bastion, but clearly that is only a white experience.
“The liberal white residents casually refer to the racist South and “flyover country”, while they are truly no better than anywhere else in the country. They’ve bought the lie about Portland being a utopia, and it keeps them from realizing they’re exactly the same as the people they revile.”

Read it, share it, reflect on it. I aspire to having the courage to defend others in public; being a woman with zero karate skills, I do not always feel safe to do so. But this makes me angry. And anger is often a productive and courageous emotion. I hope it might spark something courageous and caring in you as well.

http://www.blackgirldangerous.org/2014/10/black-woman-traveler-feel-safer-strange-places-city-live/

Walk a mile, part II

Woman Exposes Disturbing Reality of Street Harassment — Here’s How She Was Rewarded:

http://mic.com/articles/102618/woman-exposes-disturbing-reality-of-street-harassment-here-s-how-she-was-rewarded

Best comment response to the hoards of male comments on youtube indicating complete obliviousness to the negative, damaging outcomes from catcalling, a sexually aggressive act:

ONLY WOMEN WILL UNDERSTAND THIS VIDEO!!!!!! dont be fooled by the men saying “have a good day” or “hey beautiful” its just another tactic to try and disarm a woman from being on her guard!!!  DONT GET IT TWISTED, they all wanted to fuck her. she was walking, so their catcalling wasnt so bad. but if she was standing still, she would have been harassed more!  one guy was even trying to be aggressive by stating she MUST say thank you when spoken to, that’s a tactic to weasel their way into your space or pass their place, its another way of forcing engagement. look at the one walking beside her for five minutes….now think about it, if she had stopped and given everyone of them a minute of her time, she would have been hounded into some explicit convo…..men dont have to worry about being harassed, so this phenomena will never be understood to them. i saw someone in the comment section saying that she is sensitive and that there are indeed polite strangers out there who say hi…..that is  a different dynamic. a young man saying hello to an elderly woman is still different than when he does it to a young lady. he may do it out of respect to the senior lady, and its more likely his hello to the younger lady is sexual…YOU NEVER SEE A STRANGER WALKING DOWN ANOTHER MAN TO HAVE A CONVERSATION…. you never see men calling out to men telling them that theyre beautiful and have a nice day, all those men you saw in the video were clearly sexually driven to say hi to her. and its not just the sensitivity part, that shit takes an emotional toll!!!! you have to be conscious of men, every fucking turn you take, you cant just mind your business and be in your own zone and walk on by….that video was nothing, its worse out there and you bitches know it, but just because the comment section is open, you get to throw you weight around with stupid comments…so, have at it.